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There is no better way to end a year, there just isn't, than to welcome a new beloved one into the kingdom. It really does feel like hard work. It really does feel like an impossible task. It really does feel like something for others more gifted. And those aren't lies from the liar; those are in fact true statements. But it has absolutely nothing to do with you. You take the step of faith. That's what you're always called to do. You take the step of faith. But that step of faith is merely stepping aside so that the glory can take over from there. And when the glory takes over, brother, isn't it worthwhile? You can imagine the fireworks display in Heaven and you would be underestimating the rejoicing. Those imagined hallelujahs aren't imagined but shadows of the greater truth.