kept feeling a sense of

That knot resides there always. Sometimes I forget it's there. Other times I couldn't forget it if I tried. That knot sometimes presents itself as worry. Or sometimes as rage. Or sometimes as something close to eternal sadness. But I recognize it for what it is -- longing. We speak of human desire, and that's what it is. That knot inside you that twists. Believing is the recognition of that knot as desire, and understanding that the Loosener of that knot loves you beyond bearing.