want to go away also, do you

These retroactions might seem ridiculous to you. I don't care. It isn't as if the thoughts are stopping; just the time and effort and will to place them here. Not five to spare? Maybe five to spare; but frankly, the will to spare to anything is a question right now. Going to have to find a different way to think about these regular ponderings. The next few days might be where this all heads.